My younger daughter, who's majoring in photography, got into digital photography a bit this fall. Which means that when she came home she was SHOCKED and HORRIFIED to see that I am using a positively ANCIENT version of Photoshop. She was SO CONVINCED that this was an anathema that she decided my husband should buy me the latest version of Photoshop for Christmas -- which (of course) doesn't run on my ancient computer, which means (of course) he decided to buy me a new computer.
Now, don't get me wrong: my computer has grown VERY sluggish of late, and it's a pain to have my photo files sort of randomly distributed across three different disk drives because my main one can't hold them all.
But I was COPING, you know? And I knew that once I opened a new computer all sorts of problems would ensue. So I kept putting it off.
Yesterday I opened the box, at last, and set it up (it's lovely, and the screen is huge). And, following the instructions, I hooked up the old machine to the new one and allowed the two of them to spend some 16 hours chatting back and forth and sharing files. But this morning, when I opened the new one up, most of my photo files were marked with a red circle and wouldn't open.
So I am back on my old (and thankfully unaffected) computer and looking at a day or more to be spent on the phone trying to figure out what went wrong and then trying to fix it. Sigh.
These are minor concerns, of course, in the scheme of things, and I feel incredibly fortunate to have at least the hope of more speed and all my files in one place somewhere in my future. But it's hard to miss the parallels between what's happening with the new machine and the lessons I'm learning from the Spirituality and Practice Catalysts for Change course. Just as I'm trying to resolve to eat less, I have this sense that I've bitten off more than I can chew. And just as I'm determined to tackle some of the creeping chaos that's taking over my cupboards and closets, this enormous organizational task looms in front of me on my computer.
Sigh -- we're back in Buckaroo Bonzai land: "wherever you go, there you are." There's no escaping the challenges, and it's not pretty. I'm just going to have to wade into the muck and start throwing stuff around.